"Mark the hole"

I was confident of the right light; But the dark cloud climbed down and blocked my sight; I can’t see anything so I blame me; I end my trust and don’t believe in me; I got scared of another step in another mistake; Coz I’m still blaming myself and forsake; Criticism got worst inside my head; Where in the fall I thought I was already dead; So I open my eyes and carry my body; The fall gives me strength to come back to me; I plan to step again and stand tall; After I marked the hole where I fall; Composed by unnamedsoul

"Sailing in tears"

Your body may floats on the surface; An unconscious mind in different ways; You were drowning between your breath; Where you almost touch the face of death; But soon you will learn how to swim; And follow the flow how to win; Fight the weakness down below; By moving your feet slow; Coz in the dept of your fall; You will learn how to crawl; Continue sailing on the line of rise and fall; Where you can find yourself in your soul; composed by unnamedsoul

"Fooled"

I can't fool myself that im like this; I'm too weak of facing these tears; Whenever my reflection touches my eyes; All i wanna hear is just the lies; But i can't blocked this image for so long; Hiding the truth is just so wrong; Someday my mind will walk on the right path; Figure out what's there and what's not; I overprotected myself too much; But i end up paralized just to watch; I'm forced to look at the mirror; That i'm not gonna be fooled anymore; composed by unnamedsoul

"Paranoid"

I've been paranoid of embracing my naked self; Where all the rhythm is only for the deaf; Haunting every movements of my shadow; Counting the fears on the same window; Slipped on the edge of my nightmare; Trying to hide the denying despair; Closing the well upon my eyes; And the lie that i'm wishing to die; That washed away the thoughts and feelings; But it wave back to me crawling; I tried to get a grip but the thread was a line; That can be easily break when i erase what isn't mine; composed by unnamedsoul

The shadow of guilt

I never know what to do if all the lights are gone; Coz there's no chance to change the things that's been done; All the thoughts of pulling myself up is fading; All the ways to escape started closing; The undying fear was trigger in my memory; Hold me through my confusion that turns to a key; I left my last sight looking on the mirror; To remember the difference will be less or more; When darkness cover my sight; When there's no space for a light; I close my eyes and call "Gods" name; Coz i know life isn't just a game; I pray for a chance to hold them once more; To reveal the word i have never spoken before; The word without pride and shame beneath it; That won't change my image even a bit; To be ready to face this darkness alone; With no shadow enfolding my own; Coz my mind suddenly set free; The guilt when i say sorry.... Composed by unnamedsoul

Truth beneath the lies

My lies is swimming through my eyes; But the truth keeps on invading my lies; I let out the word with a smile; Then let a space pass for a while; Coz the truth will come from within; To haunt the truth i keep on hiding; Goes toward the lies lying on me; To look at me and hold me tightly; To confess my truth beneath my lies; and the space upon my eyes... composed by unnamedsoul

"Grip on the knob"

My silence was painted on my name

Made me different while everybody’s the same

Everyone turns to be a traitor

Seeking the weakness inside my closed door

The grip on the knob that I will never lose

But this weird me is what I decided to choose

Coz the monster that I didn’t expect to come

The one I’ve been fighting to destroy is what I’ve become…

Composed by unnamed soul

Coincident dice

Sometimes we need to be criticize to know what’s wrong

Sometimes we need to fall to be strong

Sometimes we need to fail to know our mistake

To see the difference between what’s real and what’s fake

Sometimes we need to be pushed to keep going

To prove they’re wrong you must keep on trying

Sometimes we need to get hurt

To learn how to wash the blinding dirt

Sometimes we need to face our fears and pay the price

Coz God isn’t playing with a coincident dice…

Composed by unnamed soul

LOCKED

I chained my tears where no one can see

Captured every fear that are struggling to be free

Trapped the strength of weakness to cover from sight

Where no one can seek with or without their lights

I locked all the dreadful feelings with a non-existing key

A key that just exist in my memory

I can’t let someone find a wound in my bone

That my hands are imprisoning my own

I can’t let go myself from this tight grip

That turned these sufferings to a stain to keep

But I don’t need to reveal my painful story

Coz I don’t need to see your tears for me…

Composed by unnamed soul

Why am I facing me?

I’ve been afraid of stepping my feet on a threat

Coz a thief keeps on stealing my only breath

Whispering the words that’s tormenting my mind

A phantom that stays always behind

Holding a chain towards my hands

That’s secretly tryin’ to blind me by this dirt of sand

Counting how many seconds that my blood will drip

Suck all my strength to lose my grip

But when I tried to fight with all I’ve got

All I’ve felt was a pain from a shot

A shot of facing this thief I’ve longing to see

But now why am I facing me…

Composed by unnamed soul

"Changed Reflection"

Tomorrow can’t help changing my reflection Stripped the phantom of the vast illusion Making me believe in a single stare To seek the image from was and where I can’t reach the rope that was holding me back The fear I have long enough is been stuck I’m starting to get burn while seeing myself in the present Spelling the words what things I can and I can’t My past image was turned into a puzzle A riddle that I can never tell No one can figure what I’ve and will become Even me can’t see the different lines on my palm I gaze at the mirror and someone just appear Somebody I am afraid of all these years…… Composed by unnamed soul

"Someone's Eyes"

All of us have their own lies

But does conscience enfold you by someone’s eyes?

A mask covered the fake side of my face

But God communicate me in His different ways

Let the rain fall when I started to cry

Embracing me when His wind passes by

Healing my grief by every tear

The whispers of hope is what I hear

My knees was pulled by the ground

And His eyes was what I found

My naked truth was only seen by Him

His only eyes can sight what’s been kept within

I have my secretly dull and reasonable lies

But still conscience enfold me by His own eyes

Composed by unnamed soul

"Fair Fall"

There are times our life is so unfair

In your dreams sometimes you’ll have nightmare

In life, there’s death

In new born, there’s last breath

In laughter’s, there are cries

In truth, there are lies

In love, there’s hate

In path some go back, but some go straight

Some say thanks, but some ask why

In a kiss of hello, there’s a kiss of goodbye

In the dark, suddenly there’s light

Some set you free, but some hold you tight

In trials, there’s blessing

Some give up, but some keep on going

But have you understand the point of failure?

The fall you thought that’ll ruin you is your cure…

composed by unnamedsoul

(I am worthy) Within the wind

Staring at the air coz it was whispering my name

Telling me over and over to stop myself to shame

The surface of this ocean was turn into rain

By these tears will dry the blue within my pain

The wind grabbed my hands to embrace me

Blowing its words to light me in my immensity

So my hidden emotion will release its strayed veracity

And to explain myself that I am worthy

Finally the agony had lost its immortality

That had burned my inmost infirmity

Composed the complete puzzle from who I am

To stand my truth right beside them…

Composed by unnamedsoul

Imprisoned shadow

An antagonized emotion is now flowing through my vein

Losing you keeps extending my extreme pain

The hatred acceptance of your unplanned death

My cruel heart keeps stealing my unescaped breathe

My dripping tears became an untasteful curse

That is leading me into two never ending stairs

To find the missing key on the unopened door

Coz I’m still hoping to see you there once more

The ghost of you keeps imprisoning my shadow

That brought me to this unbearable sorrow

composed by unnamed soul This poem is dedicated to whom i lost that's now feeling Gods pressence

My strength once more (dedicated to mama)

I admit that i'm a weak person From pretending of course i have a reason My reason is to be someone who was once like me But stronger and can write her own philosophy Though sometimes tears visited your eyes The sun is falling but soon it'll rise Everyone of us has its own mistake But you've decided to risk your life for my own sake Saying "I love you" you know that's a Yakee... thing But you've been watching me since i started walking Taking a step with hands holding me Teaching me what i must be I have no strength left for the coming test Then you give me more at your best I know someday tears might imprison me But from the strength you have given i am free In every bit of success there's someone behind In me i know it's you i will find And in the next life i know exactly what to wish for Is to be your child and you'll be my mom once more... Composed by unnamed soul